today my dad asked me not discuss my questions about islam to others. he said all and good you have questions, that's natural, but if you tell other people, they might misinterpret and say that i'm a deviant or something. i think i am a deviant but we don't talk about that. anyway my parents told me to keep looking for the truth, i'll find it eventually. my mum said i'm a good kid who is very smart and studies a lot. they are all showing me affection thinking this is just a phase, that i will stay on the straight path as a believer. this isn't just a phase. i do not believe. can i tell them? no way never ever i can't. i'm a hypocrite but sometimes people lie to survive. will i burn in the depths of hell? will i be fuel for the torture of the sinners? or am i really right, is it all a lie?